I’ve been thinking almost all day today. I thought about what my passions were–what I wanted to do in life. I’ve been feeling very hurt lately, because I felt like I have lost myself in pursuits. These were pursuits I didn’t believe in and it tugged at my core. It weighed me down.
So as I sit here, almost 10pm right now, I am reminded to stop chasing approval, to stop impressing others.
My friend shared the following Bible verse with me:
Romans 12:2 (NIV)
2 Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.
Why was I chasing sales? Why was I chasing glory from people? It broke my heart to realize I strayed away from God again. That is why I have been feeling empty on the inside, drained and blinded to my journey.
I will no longer chase success, money, fame. I will prioritize loving others without expecting a return. I will help the disadvantaged, women, and children. I will love God.
The only way to be free is to stop being bound by the need of love from others, but to surrender to God. He asks nothing of us, but to love Him, to love others.