I’ve been watching a Chinese drama called Nothing but Thirty (三十而已) and recently, I watched one episode where the character says the something like the following:
When we’re little, people around us tell is to be brave, to get back up and walk, or get back on the bike and keep pedalling until you succeed. You learn to be brave and not be afraid of failure. As you get older, in a turn of events, people tell you not to take those risks. They say, “don’t do it, the cost of failure is too great” or “you’re going to get hurt and it’s not worth it”. And with that, years of courage is tossed away.
That hit me hard.
I reflected on how I lost my courage and let fear dictate my every action and thought. I’ve become afraid of being me. I’ve become afraid of trying. Worse of all, I’ve become afraid of living.
So this very moment, I dedicate myself to not being afraid. I want my childhood mindset back, where it was all about problem solving, learning, and exploring. I’m not afraid to fall of my bike.
I am working on something new and I have been afraid on how to transition into it, but I am ready. I am done calculating all the risks, the right moves, the right way to not fail.
I promise to do it everyday and share it with you.
Thanks for reading.